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one in this ♥ world
"The river runs and the river hides, Out to the ocean and under the sky, I promise you, the answer will come, Hold on to patience and watch for the sign, Everything in its time; " |
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name's esther & 18's the number. i love potatoes to the ends of the earth and soups like nobody's business. & i believe in a
place "where love lasts forever".tagboard
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A7K1(: G.I.L ♥ (: Alex. Alvin. BingCong. Carole. Cherie. Chuhui. Emily. Dixie. Fiona. Gwen Hakim. Hannah. Hector. Joanna. Jocelyn. Junhui. Lydia. Nigel. Sharon. Ting Valerie. YanKai. happyther(: archives
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finally edited this photo. HAHA. look at the outcome of study-boredom!  there are other super ugly ones. but too ugly to show it off. LOL. though it's left unspoken, it's very much clear. you felt it. and i feel it too. M&M's starting their adoption drive soon(: i'll be willing to do up beautified profiles and boards for all of the sweetys there. lol. i realised being there seemed to have taught me the cruelty of this world, how uncompassionate humans can actually turn out to be but most lovinglywas, it taught me how to give with a big heart(: CO's going to have their charity concert on 24JUNE! i miss being in the orchestra man. I WANT TO GO BACK AND PLAY! You Are 31% Bitchy "You're a pretty sweet person, and you're definitely not prone to bitchy outbursts.Sometimes, though, you can't help thinking mean thoughts about people. But at least you don't act on them! " wanted to showcase my beautiful trip to Mutts & Mittens and say alot of things. but im lazy! i'll say them, probably in the next post to come. but here's the lovely pics for now (: .jpg) over here is beautifulMILO(: i tell you plus chop and plus stamp that she's the dream dog that any petlover will love to get hold on. AYE COME ON. she's the sweetest girl ever ok. i've never seen such an adorable sweetypie like her before. she may see you for the first time, but WOAH, she acts like she's been with you for like what? FOREVER (: she don't care bout walks. all she cares bout is the people that's walking her ((: OHHH. im so so missing her now. many kisses to you MILO (: .jpg) i look like some happy freak. :D look at MILO. we're two happy girls together (((: some love! pics taken with carole and MILO(: i din know my phone camera's quality THAT good :D .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) isn't this sweeeet?? SAY YES! ^^ .jpg) this is even ULTRASUPERDARNLICIOUS sweet man. and those are the beautiful legs of carole's (: .jpg) NEXT UP! dear old MUMMY(: yes. her name's MUMMY! she's another sweety! oh man. you must really come over to M&Ms to check them all out. you have no idea how many lovelies they have! Mummy's really gentle with people. i mean REALLY. (: ok. i was trying to hold her head to look at the pretty cam. am NOT strangling her ok PHIYORNAH. :D she's one pretty mongrel. and fiona said she looked bit like a german shep. quite true ay (: her hair's are SOO soft ok. HUGS! .jpg) carole had some real chemistry with Mummy(: don't they look like they click? :D and carole! that's STRANGLING! LOL. okay girl. im angry .jpg) already! :D there! two gorgeous beauties to adopt and share some love with(: they deserve it so much alright. im so wanting to get back there and give them more smoochies (: haww. no one really can understand how much i want to do something for these they're-so-worth-it-to-share-some-love-with sweetys. and yes, I LOVE THEM(: to dusts. LOL. MORE TRIPS TO M&MS gonna make my life COMPLETE(: you say i dont feel for you, den do you? i do have the rights to speak out my own feelings and thoughts, right? or no, i don't?.. you want me to think for you and feel for you. do you, too? humans do have their limits. and im a human too. PAMEPER ME. somebody, just pamper me. smother me with your sweets and loves. i do deserve some, aite? don tell me big words or say to me big meanings. just pamper me, and show me some love. yes, i do need some. don't shower me with big money, cos i don need them. some sillyness, things that'll make me go" ohhh...." are all that i need. just give me some pampering and let me feel bliss all over again. WHY? tell me why?... It's not right, not ok Say the words that you say Maybe we're better off this way? I'm not fine, I'm in pain It's harder everyday Maybe we're better off this way? forget bout everything i said above. it's just pure shytness and just ignore it. yes, i don't need any pampering. i don't think i need it. and i don't deserve it. just leave me bloody hell alone. why i find myself crying out to me and just me alone. this horrible fcucking feeling. im loving and loving school (: despite the fact that we had TWO tests today. and im not sure i've screw them. darn. the CDEFH (: cool huh. all the laughters are killing me. BUT I LOVE IT! thanks girls. for all the free laughters that came non-stop. blasting laughters, i must say(: YAY! im going to watch SPIDERMAN 3 later! WOOHOOOO. thanks love (: its been YEARS since we watch a movie. with all the exams and tests coming, i know you've been busy. and i understood(: lovely? smiles. talking about tests. our TERM TESTS are so crushing down on us really soon. man. just thinking about the not-so-successful late study i had last night, im really wondering what it'll be like when term tests arrive. oh dear. HAP's not getting any where, or any better. ********** SPIDERMAN3 was awesome(: not really gonna talk much bout last night. all unhappiness, SHOO! ^^ but i really wish that someone will tell me that "tears aren't free" so, don't tear so freely. lol. yes, im emotional. carole and fiona told me i am. and well, i don't really deny it. i am, sadly. okay. SPIDERMAN3 was superb(: though draggy, but the whole story just falls into place. everything made so much sense. i won't mind watching it again, but i'll probably fast forward alot of parts the next time i watch(: MJ has sleepy eyes too((: LOL. and i never thought harry was that handsome in Spiderman2. was he? but he was in 3. and i like his smile! he's SO darn handsome. BEAMS. i don't really get it why sandman wanted to do all that crimes and killings. i mean, yes, he wanted money to save his daughter. and YES, i know he's a good father. but when he robs and kills, i was wondering why the thought of his daughter never comes into his mind. alright, he was quite a poor thing too that he became sandman, accidentally. that part was stupid. LOL. and the evil spidey was GROSS. i hate his fangs ok. there's so many times the stupid evil spidey sudden appearance jumped us. and i think the photographer, Brock or something was kinda dumb. Peter was trying to save him from the clutches of the black crawly thing, but what that dumb photographer did? He jumped back and clinged onto the black thing, and disappeared with it. it like -.- . LOL. ok, i don't understand that part. "whatever comes our way,whatever battle we have raging inside us, we always have a choice. my friend harry taught me that. he chose to be the best of himself. its the choices that make us who we are, and we can choose to do whats right." i got hit by what Peter said at the end of the movie. yes, and i agree with what he said. (: we do have a choice. sometimes, some things are better off left unsaid than trying to make it heard and known. but when you don't say it out, is that a right choice to do? FINALLY! oh my iwncuhsebichwalij tian. i can finally blog. for heaven's sake, i've been wanting to post since like don't know when. but i've no idea what's wrong with blogger. yes, i THINK there is a problem with it, though they claim that it's due to our server's problem. -.- LOL. but WOOHOO, at least their status help or something is of help (: i appreciate it though. okay, whoever comes over the same problem too. please don't panic or whatsoever. (well, i did too, and freakingly clicked on the refresh button for don't know how many thousand times -.- ) accordingly to the "guide", you have to clear your cache and cookies. what the hell is that?! CATCH NO BALLS -.- :D okay. i don't know what cache and cookies mean too, AT FIRST. alright. i shall your little easy blogger guide. im not too sure. but i did it only once and it worked! (: what i did was, go to TOOLS and then INTERNET OPTIONS. there's one part which says " BROWSING HISTORY". click on the "Delete.." thing and delete all the TEMPORARY INTERNET FILES. and VOILA! (: YAY. i can blog((((: alright. why im being a technician over here. sound so kuku la can. i nearly died horribly this morning alright. seriously. try tolerating an excruciating cannot-even-tolerate-and-if-tolerate-one-sec-will-faint stomach pain. try tolerating it for MORE THAN AN HOUR, and see whether you can make it alive out of it. I WAS DYING OKAY. for more than one hour, in the super cold lecture theatre, trying to hold on to stop that horrible pain was, like a sick person running 2.4km. i dashed out straight after lecture ended. man. you don't know how happy i was when i heard " okay. lecture will end today" BEAMS! what a morning. and in the afternoon we had another tutorial lesson with that same teacher this morning. (not to forget that fiona, hannah and me were late for lecture) tutorial was supposedly to be at 3 but it was pushed up to 200pm. TWOpm i say. but haha, i don't know how she read it, carole read off the msg to be 2pm AT FIRST then became 3pm. so when i was happily eating my chicken chop while the others are doing their OBC tutorial worksheets, carole got a call. "HEY! where you guys?? Tutorial's started. " !!!!!!!!! okay. yes. our reaction was O.O. LOL. and I DIN GET TO EAT MY CHICKEN CHOP HAPPILY. :D i was gobbling like some glutton, for goodness sake. and fiona was nice to say " CHILL. eat your chicken chop peacefully" "i want to drink my ice mocha peacefully TOO " LOL! dong can. but yes. THANKS FIONA (: for volunteering to wait for me and asked the rest to go first. LOL. such a sweety(: i appreciated it. then carole was like sayin that she'll take the rap cos she didn't read the msg carefully. IT'S OKAY, CAROLE (: haha. and haw, we were late. but the teacher's in nature a really nice person. and when i say nice, it's super uber fantastically nice. (when she's not angry) the day ended quite nice though. chatted with fiona and den at flavours canteen. and it feels happy(: i don't know what went through your mind to make that 180degree change in attitude. but (: i was surprised and aprreciated, really alot. i'll give you more time definitely. because knowing that someone's doing it just for you means a whole lot different. there's a difference. it feels different. this reminded me of something that hit me and came across my head during cell on sunday. Petrina was going through about what it means to love God? yes. i love God. but it was said in Bible that if you don't love the people around you but you still claim that you love God, that's a lie. this scripture from the Bible suddenly jus enlightened me somehow. I don't know if it's that He's telling me something about His reason for me. But i just suddenly came to know that i have to love you, in order for me to have the right to say that i love Him. i don't know how am i suppose to go about doing it, but the truth jus surface itself inside of me. stupid. i've got to do my HAP and im here blogging -.- but just want to end off with this sweet little quote that emily was furiously punching them into her phone. Love is not finding someone to live with, but it's finding someone you can't live without. SCHOOL IS GETTING SIAN. im getting sleepier and sleepier each day in school man. hey. i don remember feeling at all sleepy in the first week can. HAP is boring. WELL, partly because i don't even know what the whole subject is talkin about. it's killing me. i don catch the link. and i cant process everything in my brain. now im doing bio myself when everyone managed to shirk it off last year after o's. AHHH. i dont care. im gonna force myself and work doubly hard for it. no matter how tough it is that it'll break my brain or something, or how-cannot-make-it i can get, i'm gonna buck dobly, triply, millionly to make it work! OBC and PIPC teaches the same thing can -.- sigh. i wanted so much to sleep. even math is getting sleepy. AND YAR. my careperson. OH MY TIAN. sigh. i seriously think that he cant make it to make us interested in what he's doing or talking man. hearing him talk makes me groggy! for one thing or another, he looked really uncomfortable teaching the class. he's not the kind that's really hyper and on on type of teacher. he can say 20 ERMS in 2 min. and me and hannah like sort of estimated that he probably can say 600 times of it for the remaining part of the lesson. hearing him ERMED is really getting irrtating. oops. i kinda hoped that you'll stop for me today. looking at your back, moving further and further away, kinda just set me in a mess of fury and sadness. i don't know what was i hoping for in fact. a gentlemen kindly waiting for me despite all?.. im so stuck at what i want to say. a little love won hurt, that's what i thought. a little sweet talking sometimes, would probably do wonder. i thought. i mean, im allowed to have some expecting for myself right? i know many times i've asked myself not to expect because it'll probably means greater hoping, which usually equates to disappointment. but i do expects sometimes. i am allowed to expect right? but why i don see any good use of expecting. what's a relationship all about? im wondering. BAH. pile of rubbish deep thoughts. i personally think people who've gone through alot or experienced much tends to be the stronger ones. as in, they are the ones who appear much to be the everday-happy-and-worryfree people. they appear to be, that is. and if you ever happen to know them more and know what they actually had gone through in their lives, i bet you'll probably go WOAH. haha. that's what happens to me. after knowing more bout one of my friend. she's real strong i must say. and man, she don look abit like she's gone through so way much. emily's really pressurizing me man. URGH. bugging bugging bugging me. i think i'll probably sleep early tonight. im so tired..... |
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