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it's always heartwarming to receive encouraging text msgs. especially when you really needed it. 

just wanna thank daddy BC for sending exactly just that. i kinda needed that little reminder. i know i've alr said it in my reply but still thanks, alot! (: 

& i thank mummy too. my real mummy. i know i can always count on her. thanks for trying hard to cheer me up. trying really hard. LOL. 

& no, i'm not stressed over studies la. not just YET. (: 

"人生未必很累,
看你如何品味。"





waaa, i've got the most disgusting blisters in the whole universe man. im disgusted by it myself. Blisters that went thru tears and abrasions for a whole day while poor me tried to drag my swollen feet all around. Seriously, I've never had blisters this painful! &!^@&^#!^@*(!2  Just becos i wore some kuku heels which is not really heels cos the heels are only less than a inch high, but man what sharp teeth it has! & my flip flops totally din make walking easier -.- instead, the straps bua & buaaaaaaa the alr peeled & exposed wounds. should i even put up the pic? all i can say is, it's bloody red flesh. YUCKS! 

ok nvmind. i shall just show. 

 

& this is only one foot! ): 

& i don't know if it's just me or what, because.. THE WEATHER IS TOO HOT FOR ME TO BEAR!! it's really really scorching hot that i can feel the insides burning. pls tell me it isn't just me! 

Lord, Please let it rain! 

haha :D 

i've always known that i'm tilting more to the sensitive side. & i know this side of me really well. half of the time or maybe more than half, i've always believed or trusted what my heart/gut feeling tells me. i don't know how true, but my sixth sense never really fail me before. most of the time, this gut feeling turns out to be ya, the way i thought it to be. one of the many reasons why i start thinking alot, when i don't want to believe whatever i'm feeling. maybe, that's another reason why, alot of times, i'll withdraw myself. i know very well that being a tad bit too sensitive's not always a good thing but i realised that's how i make my choices and decisions..

ok whatever i'm ranting, gotta sleep!
night sweets! (:    


MUA : D



greatness, im craving for Wang Cafe's coffee now! (alright, i can just forget bout' it)

okay, y'know what i'm hoping for now?

i hope that it'll rain tonight all the way til morning.
& probably make it a good excuse to snuggle longer under the sheets,
& hide away from the real world. even if it's just for that few minutes..

get up to a hot, steaming cuppa coffee..

space out & breathe in the cold, wet air..

ok, snap it out.

oh wait, i can smell rain.







(:


i think i've never felt this good after a day of muscle burning, energy consuming & exercise intensive day!

running & walking in the rain.
feeling all sticky, sweaty & wet. (yucks!)
did so much walking that both of my legs hurt like shit aft 2 hours of cycling.
went alllll the way from Bedok to AMK just to watch a movie. -.-
(we were really damn on seh.)
watched Coffin & laughed when you're not really supposed to.
continuous jaw-straining laughing at their "dirty" jokes.
& ending up looking like a horrible-looking zombie loose on the street.

& the fact that i've got a t-shirt tan now & feel sick & have a bad headache now.
-.-

but still,
i loveee my youths!
: D

i realised,
i always find it really hard to see through people. 
so hard that sometimes i give up without even trying to. 

Rippling ♥ Time

They made my 6 weeks of holidays and work worth every bit of my time. tired as it can gets sometimes or when full blown sianess just turn yr mood upside down, but with them ard, it always equates to endless madness, retardness & laughters. 

i kinda missed working there la! to say a bit of truth. when i went back to visit them, the promoting instinct just kicks in instantly. i felt so at home at the shop pls! LOL. & so, it was really hard to reject Jasmine when she called in to say they need ppl at the shop. & ya, so i ended up working today. (: W SAILAHHHHH :D who never fails to make me laugh like shit & make me go crazy & lose self-control. HAHAHA.


sailah, nehneh (:











joanneeee! (: 


Boss treated us to Starbucks laaaa ((((: 
yes, i don deny we were damnnn happy! hahahahah! 





Make ♥ with the Sun.

i sweated like some pig under the scorching hot sun LA. it's ultra pigu hot pls! but despite it all, not much tan -.- -.- -.- & i seriously loveeeee Sentosa & the beach & the water & the sandd. but i can't go as & when i like ): 

Anyway, these are some of the peeks that my 2 girls haven't posted up yet. want to see the rest, can blog hop to theirs' (: & yes! i know im fatttt ): AHHHH. 





i was shocked when i saw this pic. i looked masculine o.o





the trio. (:




neh♥

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everyday i get home really tired and the body always end up feeling achy all over. well, i knew the reason for today - cos i kinda like got my body clock workin' since 6+AM in the morning. i don't like this tired and feel sick all over feeling. & everytime when i want to pen down sth here or that i'm halfway through the post, i'll always find myself dozing off alr with my eyes half closed, brain shut down and the soul halfway outta the body. & i'll just end up feeling so whatever like "what the pong am i still sitting here in front of the com" & i'll just leave everything aside. & it continues & continues..... 

& i've been having drastic mood changes. 
what's with the choking feeling & all the fighting back of tears lately? 
i hate it when it happened in nowhere private & the insides just overwhelm with sudden messed up emotions. URG. 
i hate it cos' i think i look stupid. 
i feel stupid. 

ok end of whatever. 

im feeling damn sleepy now. zzzzzzz
cycling tmrw at ECP!! : D

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my gums are really hurting like shit now.

i'm not looking forward to sch tmrw.

i hate going out with a flat batteried phone. but stupidly, i tend to carry one.

thoughts that i've been trying hard to keep away had been shuffling back.
& i don't like it.

i can feel my mood fumbling again.


ok maybe, all these moodswings are due to the cramps. really bad cramps that got me in such an ugly state yesterday. all these times, i've always been telling myself that it's ok to be by myself. but for once aft such a long time, i was hoping that i've got someone there right at that moment.


Just call my name.


WA I TELL YOU AH!

BATHING NICK IS PROBABLY THE MOST TEDIOUS, FRUSTRATING, PATIENCE TESTING, TIME CONSUMING & TOLERANCE CONSUMING THANG I EVER DID! 

okay, probably one of the self satisfying one too. 

i'm pretty sure i won't want to train & be a professional groomer in the future. Nick is considered one of the most ting hua dog to work on, so imagine some other horrifying ones.... brrr. *snap it out!* 

ok, im so done with him now! thank God there's no sch today & i could sleep in a tad bit longer than i can. (: 

LEI SI WO LE!!! 

(PICTURESQUE)

virgindye







MUMMYDAYOUT.








PPH; BOYSWEAR.




night picnic by the lake! 



sorry if this scared you. LOLLL!!!!











<3



act only sehhh. 8D!!




sorry, really buay tahan alr. 

bye. 
LOL!


lovers'date



























hey yohhh! i can't wait to count and punch the calculator w you when sch starts. 
HAHAHHAHAHAHAH! 
we din go out much la this hols! ):
but still, i love you. 
((((:  


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one more day. to dreadful school. oh my gosh. i've still got lots of things i wanna do. i'm not yet ready or prepared for another sem of mad rush. i hate to know that im waking up to yet another day, looking forward to nothing. i hate to want to know that im actually draggin myself to school. i hate to know that im not gonna love what im doing, at least for the first few weeks or just maybe one whole term. i hate to know... 

is it that dreadful? 

"Sometimes, it's not the situation that you're in that should be making a change. so, don't go asking God, hopeful that He'll turn the situation ard. It is the perspective of yours sometimes, that needs the change in order to see a transformation in your situation."

 a change in your perspective to things, could just be the answer to all.