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one in this ♥ world
"The river runs and the river hides, Out to the ocean and under the sky, I promise you, the answer will come, Hold on to patience and watch for the sign, Everything in its time; " |
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name's esther & 18's the number. i love potatoes to the ends of the earth and soups like nobody's business. & i believe in a
place "where love lasts forever".tagboard
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to the sweetcup :j
a blessed 17th "im me when im with you" Locked away.
 deviantart; Phrased and rephrased. No words seemed to fit at all & even if it does, i was afraid it'd be too direct & no, i don't want to hurt anybody. cos' that's not my point. In fact, it never was. Denying isn't gonna help & reality is still gonna hit straight back at you again, hard. Reality is the name we give to our disappointments. & sometimes, we just gotta be honest with ourselves. This is reality. They say, the reality is cruel. & I think for too long, i've always believed and pictured the world to be not that bad a place like how many said it is. Despite certain things that had proved me wrong, i still wanted to believe and hold on to that speck of hope and faith - that genuineness do exist. Do they still? I thought & i think, & it's i thought and i think again. "You thought wrong." How many have i already thought wrongly then? Things that i heard, things that i've realised & come to know. What's real & what's not, I don't think i know how to tell them apart anymore. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. & i've always try to live by this. Share the love and spread the joy to others, & they will too. Look out and watch out for others, & they will too. Be there for them & stand by them, & they will too. & don't hurt or crush them, & they won't too. But then again, this is reality. Life's twist and turns. & i can remember saying that in the beginning of the year that i'm not quite ready for it. & sure enough, i don think i got myself ready in time. It's been a bumpy rollercoaster ride. All the sudden jerks and unexpected upturns. & I asked God many times why. There's always a lesson to learn, but why do i have to learn it the hard way? Why did You give and take it away? What is it that You want me to learn? Is it all that easy? To forget? To dispose? To put aside? To move on? And when i cried out for comfort, You told me this. Isaiah 40; When all i wanted was to stick onto what i've always thought i know, but when more odds came rushing in & reality left no room for mercy, when the heart battled hard & tried t push away all the neg emotions, emotions tt'll build nastier emotions & i don't want tht... i wanted so much to hear from You. And, you showed me, Mark 11:22-25. & it hit me, simple & clear. Yes, i heard you. A choice, made from the heart. Like how you did to all of us, w no conditions. & Thank you, for every little thing. Looking back, i can safely say that there were no regrets. Though through this period of time, you never really showed bit of concern on how im getting by, disappointed cos' you didn't feel the need to ask & it just tells me that i've got to let go, like how fast you did. But thank you, again. I know you're happy now. Pack up and lock away. Brace up now. You're not alone. It's time to get back on track. "Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, we must fail in order to know, Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears." |
