Holding it close to the Heart;

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ohmamawheeeee! i've got to cramped alot of things into such a short afternoon! die die die die. ok. let's just hope i can finish MOST of them :X

cook Nick's meal
do up youth cell's (G.I.L) tee design
pack up whatever for tonight's stayover at Neh's (:
clear up the house before i leave
& reply my childhood bestie's letter (i'm loving it! you reading this sharmaine? : D )

& i've got to wait alone for Neh to knock off from work later )): now what am i sup to do wandering ard PS alone.... gah! i'll just bring my dear storybook and sit at Starbucks. wa, sounds pathetic man. ok ok, it's not at all pathetic Esther, you rarely can take time out, sit and just let the world go by slowly, look at it as a priviledge from above. (: alright, that does it!

okok! TIME'S TICKINGGGGG!

note:
my keyboard really did die on me last night, & for goodness sake, there's ZERO usable/spare batteries at home. like what?!?!? so in the end, i've got to force myself to stop blogging halfway PLUS, i can't msn if i don't
want getting finger cramps trying to chat using handwriting mode. so urg. im basically forced to switch off the com & sleep! -.-

J.Co's Donuts are thumbs up with a big fat smile :D

i didn't know J.Co's donuts are that heavenly! not that Donuts Factory's not good, but can compete :D plus J.Co's got bonus points! its cafe is at a really cosy corner with comfy couches and soft lightings - great ambience la! :D

(ok, my keyboard's running out of batt... -.-)

"aye -my! give spastic face! "

"not like that la. more spastic!"

XD!!!

First ever neoprints taken w my girls :D

din get to have those old school neoprints session becos' i forgot who (was it Fio?) who said you can't take pic with odd numbers. & ya, there were 5 of the other time. but thanks to JoJoJooooooo, WOOOOTS. neoprint times revived! (:

ok. don't mind me now, cos' i feel like digging through all my photos & put them out here. so, sorry for the randomity (if such a word even exist, but you get what i mean :D)

ONE PLACE =/= ONE SHOT

lazy to edit the peeks :X HEE.

(Deniscia Deninvan)

(Carole Ogawa w the "don't play with now or you'll get it" face. LOL.)

(Hannah Tan)

(look how shocked Carole is & ignorant is Fio. hahaha!)

SPOT! Carole with the thumbs up sign!! HAHAHA. (like father, like daughter... XD)

& the usual number poses. :D

and then it got bit haywired.. so fast. 3 shots only lehhh. LOL.

the short "Nanny" moments during lab.

we were trying really hard to tame the rats la. i can still remember Mr Chooi fumbling himself w the rats pls -.- i saw through what he thought he'd hidden well - fear. he looked scared laaaa. & then the rest of the lab session ended up with us carrying one rat each and babysit, coo-ed, bond & bond & more bonding w it. LOL! aww, memories (:

The Beauty of DSLR.

More expensive cameras really do produce better quality shots laaaa. Look below! No edits no nothing. picture perfect! :D

Found these pictures at Neh's friendster. reminds me of those horrible CSAS speeches that almost gave me the worst heart attack ever :S!

the signature Dragon pose. HAHAHHA. was it dragon? XD

8PPH

I let you in, just a little too close
You
shut the door, so nobody would know
I know I heard a shot, on the fourteenth
floor
The music was raw, you really put on a show

This is where we
are
This is where we've been
This is how I fall
In love with you
again

I had to say goodbye, before I said hello
I saw you crash, and
you took off your clothes

And this is the sound of a broken heart
beating
Almost died when I found your heart cheating
I won't survive
very much longer
You got to keep this broken heart stronger

Where
did I go wrong
I can't be your friend
After where we've been
I can't
see your face again

You leave your troubles at the door
I feel we
don't know what we're fighting for
Feels like I'm a prisoner baby
So
hard when you have to fake it
It hurts so much to feel love
When you
know you've got to break it

And this is the sound of a broken heart
beating
(where did I go wrong)
Almost died when I found your heart
cheating
(I can't be your friend)
I won't survive very much longer
(after where we've been)
You got to keep this broken heart stronger
(I can't see your face again)

I fall for you again

i've no idea why the money is still slipping away eventhough i'm busy working! plus, it's slipping away FAST. this is very terrible. oogosh oogosh. everytime i take a look at a new receipt from the ATM machine, my heart falls further down. like ahhhh! it's depleting like crazy!!! WHY!! (ok, maybe i know why.)

i've no pictures at hand from TGIF outing 3 & today's meetup sooo, words shall it be (:

Today
i immediately replied when Charlene dearest asked to have lunch together. it's been 126513654864541 months since i've really seen her, talk to her & hear her. mainly becos the A's are charging towards them at full force & knowing her geeky side (LOL!), studies first, so i've been putting aside plans of meeting her up alot of times. ): busy as she is, when she's finally free, of cos must meet up la! even if its for a few sec! :D miss her like sotong crazyy pls! & aft the horrible incident of Pappy ): anyway, me being such a great friend (XD), i printed out the note of encouragement that i typed many weeks ago for her. i hope it brightened up your day, my girl! (: & it was just perfect seeing you again! SLEEPOVER AFTER STUPID FAT A'S IS GONE FOR GOOD! :D

oh ya! & i stepped into the lib today aft all these years! HAHAHA. thanks to char.

ok. i borrowed 2 books & a mag back. & let's just HOPE that they'll stay safe and within my sight for let's see, the next 3 weeks & not go missing or get heavily overdue. which ALWAYS happen whenever i've decided to borrow. !@#$%^%

DUE DATE: 18 OCT!
REMIND ME GUYS!!! i'll appreciate it many many!

Friday
3rd outing with my PPH! & thanks to fiona's great & marvellous idea of Men's Wear, i had a hard time trying to think of what to wear! -.- & i know for sure i'll look horrible in it. HAHHAhA. ohwells. but thanks to Neh, got to borrow her Neighbour's (Lucas') tee, which looks like a girl's tee. LOL! we were saying like if the shirt got disapproved, we can show her the tag on the shirt which clearly says, "GUYS; SMALL" :D :D :D HAHA! & then, Neh became my few seconds of les partner. the bonus of wearing sports bra to wrap it tight, wlaooo really like boyfriend la. LOL!

Soooo!
Me & Neh - small guys shirt tee.

Role & Fio - serious on! ppl wear Boyfriend shirts, they wear Daddy's. super oversized! :D

Den - a Bf lookalike shirt (probably the only one who feels comfortable in her own shirt. lol!)

anywayyyyy,

IS GREAT BEYOND WORDS!

a must catch la! i din know it was such a great movie & best part is, we watched it for 6SGD! SIX LEH!! Did i tell you that i nearly got a heart attack (ok, exaggerations XD) the other time when i watched a movie that cost me a big fat $10?!?! like WHAT?!!! robbery plszxzxzxzxxz!!

ok sorry sidetracked. but YES! Mamma Mia's good good good good good good good goood gooooooood :D i love the lightweight & chirpy atmosphere that it gave off! bound to lighten up your day & YOU CAN SING ALONG TOO! & maybe shake bit in yr chair, snap yr fingers, hum, tear a lil, &&& aiya!! JUST DAMN GOOD LA!!! :D (ok, what marvellous vocabs i have -.-)

you get what i mean (:

& after theee,
NIGHT OUT @ BOTANICS GARDEN (:

the night was just greeeeeeeeat canzxz :D w the swans (+ bats + mating butterflies + snails), stars!, the breeze, the can't-be-explained calm feeling. & yes, plus my girls (:

brought Subway, chips, drinks, snacks & sit happily beside the Swan Pond to have a late-night picnic. shiok pls! i think i've never really sat & enjoy myself in botanics! yes? no? NO. LOL.

we fed the swans! they were THIS close. & so beeeeautiful! but fiona was so scared when they got really near la -.- HAHAHHAHA.

& ya. when we first sat next to the pitch dark pond, my wonderful imaginary brain starts running wild (results of too much, which is not at all many & can be counted using one hand, horror movies -.-) i was so scared that sth will just crawl out of that dark pond la! DARK WATER!! :S i din't even wanna look too much or stare too long at the pond! ok, confessions. :X scary plsssssss!

heard stories of Carole's amazing sister. which is not really thhaaat amazing at all. but dear girl, see past all of what you're seeing right now, & love alright? sisters are after all, still sisters, aye? (:

& then games of Confessions. thought up by fiona again. her brain huh! i wonder what's stored inside. she even prepared forfeits alr. Red nail polish & stars stickers. BUTTT, the not so on us, in the end chose the ____ y'know for forfeits. LOL!!

not so much of real confessions luhh. it's a Cheats/Bluff version of Confessions. you can weave out a fako one & see the rest can see true not. AND! im quite good at it leh!! out of about 10 games, i lost like 3 times!! meaning 3 stickers kena on face :D :D & fiona, the game planner, got 8 stickers! Neh 7, Den 7, Role 5 i think. HEEEEE (:

&! i just realised that out of the 3 i lost, 2 was cos' i can't see through fiona's fake confessions! she was the only one i couldn't really quite see through when it's her turn to confess. (wa, like some mind reading psycho thing huh! XD) but really, the rest was quite easy to know if its true or fake. fiona!!! YOU'RE SCARYYYYY! HAHAHHAHHA XD

anymamawheees, although there's no camera for the day cos' someone brought out a camera but with NO memory card in it, PPH still can camwhore like nobody's business. LOL!!! :D no pictures laaaaaa. HEE.

so you guys shall wait til they send me, ok? (:

OHGAY.
y'know what?
this is like abit too long huh???
& since nobody will read til here,
forget it,
i shall stop here.
RAHH!

LOL! (:

(When the world swirls with naysayers)

long words short say. (direct translation: 长话短说 XD!)

i apologised for the shortness ya. im really too tired to think properly but since im here, might as well just type bit of something (:

im heavily sleep-deprived cos',
covered Neh's & Eyla's shift on Wed. Sick Eyla need to go back so, i ended up working full that day
i slept during the whole train ride to CityHall this morn laaa (i've never slept on the train since i started work, so yes, i was that tired)
mr sleepyhead got me switched into a super moodless the whole morning during work (had the urge to just nua at one corner la!)
BUT! my boss blanjah me nice coffee!! (that's really a booster! :D)
& it's been quite awhile since my day 'vebeen brighten up by such little things (:
Uncle CC's gonna teach me how to pluck strings! (:D)
'vebeen ordered to go to Neh's house tmrw morning. (HAHAHA!)
TGIF outing tmrw (Men's wear??? what does guys wear?? like zomggggg.)
& the hands itchiness are not getting better, in fact, worsen by a tad bit. (it kinda spread ): )
SAVE MEEEE )': dammit.

"And this is the sound of a broken heart beating
Almost died when I found your heart cheating
I won't survive very much longer
You got to keep this broken heart stronger"

short & sweet

- worked full today
- tolerated yet another day's of itchness
- briskwalked with mum last night
- planning to wake up early to go swim tmrw
- telling myself, i MUST make it
- cos' i've not been keeping to my words of waking early ):
- love love love OneRepublic man!
- the songs kept on replaying in the head
- tmrw's an OFFFFFF day :D :D
- i feel like getting a haircut,
- & should i dye my hair???
- i want to learn how to pluck strings fast fast fast.
- i'm thinking of starting a Medical Journal for my stupid hands (ok, i know
  it sounds stupid)
ok, goodnights darlings. sigh.

heartfelt words}

seriously, i wanted so much to help you. as far as my ability (& as far as my patience) can bring me to, i'm very willing to jus sit down & guide you teach you help you explain to you, even if it means putting aside time for whatever or that i used to be weak in those areas myself. but for you, i can just read them up again & try hard to recall, for you. do you know that?

but i need to see your effort in wanting to do better this time round. i really need to see them, to see you wanting to hold on & push on. even if i want very much to help you, it takes 2 hands to clap you see? you got to want the same thing too..

i don't mean to nag, i don't want to pester. but do you know that 2nd chances don't come by so easily? but by grace, you had a 2nd chance, to prove yourself again. you told yourself everytime that you weren't cut out for the books or plainly, stupid. & i tell you, you aren't. everyone's made to be special. just don't ever give up on yourself, cos you know what? im not giving up on you, neither is Daddy above. so don't go giving up on yourself right now, you hear me?

i've always thank God for such a great sis like you. i've always do. & just thinking bout how you're so ready to give up on yourself makes me cry and the heart ache.. do you know that?

can you see how much you mean to me now?

i think i take nice pictures of Nick man : D

he just found his new best friend & his name's Teddy the chocolate bear :D i saw them snuggling so tightly together on the bed the other time & i just have to snap a few shots of them. SO CUTEEEEEE aren't they??? say no & i'll kick your backside er i tell you. LOL!

that's my boy! (:

{as above}

& i found the scrapbooking thing!! fumbled here & there with the tools. like wlaooozxzxzxz. it really test your patience! ok, now it's all unreal and device-aided. next time! it'll be the real thing! give me time to learn first. :D :D :D

GAHHHHHH !!
& you know what? MY HANDS ARE ITCHING AGAIN. & i can't take it!! scratchrubsratchrubscratchrubscratchrubrubrurubrurb!!!! Dettol's not helping!! & i dunno why the itching on my elbow spread & spread & spread now there's like RASHES LOOKALIKE RED DOTS all the way to the wrist!!!

hen yang!! :'((((((((((((((((((
who can helpppppp?? )):

*clasp hands & shut eyes tight*
Lord, help take away the itch so i can sleep soundy tonight. pleasee... ):
Amen.

oh yaaa! what you guys think of the new bloghead? :D :D :D

spilled thoughts;

too alike,
so much so that,
the heart skipped a beat at the first glance.

& the next,
tears started welling up..

长得太像了。。。

with de Lover

finally caught up with my lover! like finally plszxzxzx. since the stupid exams i've not really seen her properly. HOW CAN! hahahha. mon was my only free day this week & straight away, i pounced on it & book stamp chop for lover alr. :D :D HAHA.

as always, the best chilling partner (:

cute hor? :D

& i tell you ah. im so gonna get my hands on a friggin camera man! i need to snap up all those memories! ):

too little!!!!

de Randoms
random chunks of pictures to share (:

its the trend - cui. HAHAHAH.

U-theatre final assignment - short play of your assigned play genre.
But those were some Confidence Walk's masks la. hahhaha. which was...

...made to this. :D

the thang we do at work. hahahha! sweet aye?

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