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"The river runs and the river hides, Out to the ocean and under the sky, I promise you, the answer will come, Hold on to patience and watch for the sign, Everything in its time; " |
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name's esther & 18's the number. i love potatoes to the ends of the earth and soups like nobody's business. & i believe in a
place "where love lasts forever".tagboard
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school started but it feels like i've been going to school all these while. apparently, the 2 week break didn't at all felt like a break. urg. & now what? 1 week of sch had alr passed by. seriously, time is flashing by so fast that i find myself already having a hard time catching up with it. only 1 week, & i've alr have projects, assignment, lab reports & quizzes to prepare for next week. tell me man, how tortourous can sch be? even a mountainful of happy pills won't be able to keep the stress level down this time. on a side note, having to be independent sucks. AHHH. there's really too much things to do & think. and there's still the Youth Production stuffs to worry about. Oh Lord, I need Your strength again. 1. Fish Tank Proj 2. Youth Appreciation Cards by Sun 3. Church pamphlet 4. AIMM lab report by Mon 5. FPath assignment by Mon 6. i-forgot-which-subj tut quiz ): & before i know it, i'll find myself mugging super rock hard yet again. ): alright, i guess that's enough of my rantings for the moment. there's always things to be thankful for & yes, i have too. i thank God so so much that He saw me through each & every step past the term test week. though i was all alone in S'pore & having used to mugging at home during big exams period, i know that i had to be brave & move on still & just y'know, walk by faith. postive thinking checked. but deep down somewhr, i still feel bit unsure. but thank God, really. not only were Neh's family so heartwarming, making the stay so cosy that i wasn't worrying much, the days flew past so unbelievably fast, that it felt really short. to add on, i felt great amount of ease & relief after every paper. there wasn't anything about worrying over losing marks in whichever section, whether i did my best, you know? those mixed up & heavy feelings you get when the paper's like bloody tough or you think you did badly for the paper? i have nothing of that sort. i just felt very, relaxed. i really felt His company, assurance & presence. and this week? papers back. and He really saw me through all the way, til the end. not only did i passed all papers, i can't believe the results i got for some too. FPath: 41/50 BChem: 29/40 ACM: 32/50 MGen: 25/50 (this, pass happy le man) AIMM: i forgot. but i thought i'll fail this la cos none of the things we studied came out. at all. walk by faith & believe. He'll never fail you. "Do your best & God will do the rest." alright, time to cut off those emo strings. SNAP! i just want everyone else to be happy. ok, here's a smile (: hahahha. your voice lingers.         more. i guess.. i was right all along. no. im not reading into it too much. no, im not. can i have some happy pills? ):
i don't know what's wrong with me now, but im feeling really really fed-up & irritated with God knows what. ): for goodness kuku's sake, HELLPPPPP! my right hand's itching really very badly! )': the itch is so bad that i can't sleep properly the whole of last night. & it became so unbearable that i had to wake up in the middle of the night to get hot water & dipped my hand in )': it's that bad. & now, my hand looks disgusting.. ): just to fill those who don't know me, this itch issue had been stuck on me since young. it comes every few months. & i just found out fr mummy that my hands witll itch if i touch chocolate. like ?!?!?!??! HUH? WHAT? i never knew THAT! ok whatever the case is, i rmbr very clearly that the doc said it'll heal as i get older. & by far, the itch wasn't really a bother but not this time! HELLLPPPP ): ok, here are some pictures i "illegally" took during our fishie excursions. hahaha. v. beautiful birds on sale in one of the bird shops there. i've never even seen any of them before la. the aunty was saying sth like, " uh huh, uh huh, take pic again i charge 50cents per pic alr huh" LOL. ooops.
(pretty mini peacock look alike huh?)
these baby parrots are the ultimate adorable creatures manzxz! selling at $300 can? they are brought up from young and they don't bite! put your hands into the cage, & all of them will chiong to playfully nibble at yr fingers & push yr fingers w their tongues :D cute luh!
& as promised. (: really great shots that are worth your time looking at! :D  LOOK AT THOSE BEAUTIFUL EYES.     sweeeeet luh! (pouts) i want to keep one toooooooooo ): until then, those under my block will stand in for the moment .. luh. hahha.   the old boy who's been here since i moved into this house way back when im still a pri 3 kid. GINGER (: : D went all the way to serangoon today to do our fishie proj. and howoa! the weather's hot hot hot! scorching burning manzxz. but thank God, the interviews(ok, not really INTERVIEWS but more like endless questions bombarded straight at those fish shop uncles. :D ) went thumbs up! but we've got to speed up! sch's starting in like 5 days?!?! O.O WHAT! )))))))): sigh.. anyways, it was pretty fascinating looking at some of those really interesting fishes BUT, i still don't like to keep them. nice to look at, yes yes yes, but i hate it that i can't do much or help much when they are in pain or dying. no. those furry ones are still the best luh. :D after the whole thing, we walked all the way to Chomp Chomp. howoa! ok luh, it wasn't really that far. just that the unfamiliar places around me made me feel abit lost & the journey bit long. & i can't help it but ask "where are we now huh?" a few times. lol! the food's good good good! & yessaar! ICE3's the best! it's just right opp Chomp Chomp & the place's damn chill luh! plus, they were having Tue special treats & their Krepe's are going on a 50% cut. Choc fudge with Banana fillings & Almond Flake TOPPINF OFF a Mocha Ice Cream. what about that? (: We played DIY Bingo with papers & pens :D FUN LA! & suayness me just had to keep losing right aft when we set the rules to have forfeit -.- & i had to admit that i'm lousy like bang sai in 'oh-ya-bei-ya-som'! URGGG. i lose like 4 outta 5 times we played?? and got myself drawn all over the place?? and fiona just had to write a big "FART" on my throat O.O soooo, when we left the place, people were squinting their eyes & giving weird stares at our necks. -.- -.- -.- embarrassing like nobody's business luhhhh! but it was damn hilarious. LOLLOLLOLOLLOL. Neh & Fio had a serious good time laughing AT me. oh wells (: more more pls! alrightz. i know i've not been posting up much pictures. when HOHO, i've got like alot piling up. ohhh whatever luh. but i want to share these today! some shots that i think are really great. (: they are sweetlings for some some reason. just look at them, how can you resist not smiling? (: too lovely a creation. don't you agree?     
really really beautiful.
& this! :D
(heart melts.) (: i've also got one pile of great shots on the felines. til then! i wonder if you ever cared..
look at the time. it's gonna be an ultimate hectic wish me luck. g'nights now. sweetest dreams.. can't help it. listening to jielun's songs in the middle of the night is always the love man! ok, that's one of the reason why i love the holidays. because this is the only time when i can sleep a little bit later, not worry about tomorrow & just indulge in his songs. (: & you-tubing never fails you. lol! & whenever you start listening rightz, you'll always have a sudden urge to want to go to KBox like NOW. : D but its okayy, like i said, you-tubing never fails. have a mini personal K-session with yourself la! its absolute free & easy. LOL. ok, say i sua-gu for all you want.
& nothing is as great (ok, other than seeing God one day. ha!) as looking at a guy play the piano with all his heart. i thank God that there's not much sch stuffs or work (brr!) to tie me down during this well-appreciated holidays. i think i really needed this hols man. i don't know, but i feel like withdrawing from the whole world. just for a short period. & i've mostly been in a partially switched off mode for the past few days. practically dragged myself out of the house when i had to. holidays are here but im still not going online. okay, maybe i've gotten so used to not. & i kinda like that there's no school now. (ok stupid, who doesn't) why can't the hols be longer?? alright, maybe it won't be a good idea. i'll just be daydreaming more than usual. wooot! pph's pj night tmrw (: & i miss yi. ): & i hope charlene's feeling better now.. & i realised that im better a listener than a talker.. that's why you don't usually hear me verbally talk to you so much of my own stuffs. cos most of the time, i'll probably just convince myself that it's better off putting all away than bringing it up.. i won't know how to say it out anyway too. that's my problem. or is it a problem? but weirdly though, i can always be glad to just sit down and listen to you rant for hours. & i mean it, hours. & i love chilling outside of Starbucks, sipping Mocha Frapp in the cool night & just enjoy doing nothing. a precious catching-up session will be good (: ok i think i typed out a whole lot of random junks here. isolation. you can't miss this! this is really a very very very very very good show. im serious & i can sum-pah. i know alot of you are rotting your butts away at home right? now you have so much time, GO WATCH THIS. it's worth your time. well, i thought it was worth mine. it's okay to let yourself cry a river over shows like that once in a while. it's really good. really. here's the MV! ppl who don't trust my taste, fineee haha! then watch the MV first! click play! click play! click play! : D
the internet is just so pissingggggg manzzxzxzx. all thanks to stupid ACM. sign up like million times, trying to find the page a billion times, and internet for pete's sake just won't stay sane and i have to redo the stupid quiz for don't know how many times. URG! & what's best. now i have to make a special trip to sch ALL ALONE just to hand in two slips of papers into a pigeon hole! I DON'T WANT TO GO ALONEEEE... ): rah nvm. sigh. ok v random. All American Rejects' songs are damn nice! : D ok, slow -.- [add-ons] today is so not my day man. minus the very PMS-ing morning, the afternoon was v. yucky too. i did excellent leg workouts today luh. left the house. used the stairs to go all the way down. crossed the bridge. but stupid, missed bus23. waited for like kuku years. bus came. but shitzxzxx, I FORGOT TO BRING MY WALLET o.o! like what?!?!?! pissed like madness. crossed the bridge. walked all the way back home. get the damn wallet from mei. walked back. crossed the bridge AGAIN. not to mention that i skipped & walked up and down 10 storeys in the morning..... -.- but still, i went to swim 9 laps today with Charlene. hahahahhahahah. say 'power' manzxz! alright, actually im kinda loving the tiredness.. the mind started to wander alot again these few days. i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno la... i don't know.. & don't want to know. [/add-ons] there's something about this song.. but im not sure what. ah oh wells, it's nice.
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