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"The river runs and the river hides, Out to the ocean and under the sky, I promise you, the answer will come, Hold on to patience and watch for the sign, Everything in its time; " |
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name's esther & 18's the number. i love potatoes to the ends of the earth and soups like nobody's business. & i believe in a
place "where love lasts forever".tagboard
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A7K1(: G.I.L ♥ (: Alex. Alvin. BingCong. Carole. Cherie. Chuhui. Emily. Dixie. Fiona. Gwen Hakim. Hannah. Hector. Joanna. Jocelyn. Junhui. Lydia. Nigel. Sharon. Ting Valerie. YanKai. happyther(: archives
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haven't been saying much here except bits and pieces of my feelings for the past few days. okay, i agree that there's alot of bumps here and there recently and yes, it seemed that there's no way out at that point of time. it totally crumpled my heart, soul, mind and whatever you can think of. i feel, unhappy. i know very well what's troubling me, and i just can't get it out of my head. its just so frustrating! you know, FAN DAOOOOO. lol. however, one thing comforting to know is that, i don't throw myself into rivers of "self-torture" like i would in the past, because deep inside i know Daddy will pull me out of this, and yes, He did. he always did. THAT'S WHY HE'S SO AMAZING ^^ You even showered me with so much joy on Sunday. So much that i teared.. Sunday I will always remember 08July's worship. For the first time in my life, i feel that our worship is awesome! I see it, i hear it, i know it, and i feel it. (: Truthfully speaking, before that, i've always felt really uneasy doing back up and singing during praise & worship. I couldn't feel anything. & i don't feel the church's passion to worship just singing out loud to Him. that, somehow discourages me alot to sing for P&W. But that day, it was different. Just so different. When we were practising before service started, Pastor Don came & told us to sing with passion and do actions like clapping when we sing. That is not the way we worship everytime in church, i mean those backup singers, so when he said that, i can feel that no one's gonna do it. Sometimes, I really feel like just worshipping the way i would in City Harvest. Just sing out loud, with my heart & knowing that He's hearing & He's delighted. You know, that kind of sincere praising? (: And yes, it's because everybody's doing the exact same thing- singing with passion. And i could just open up my heart and give my truthful praise. But somehow, i find it always hard to do it in my church. Sorry, i din want to compare but i can feel the difference. Someone told me before that a church's surroundings can affect your spiritual growth, but i don't want to leave my church. I want & hope to see changes. And yes, i did that day(: Pastor Don said something to us that spurred me somehow. He said sth like, "It's the worship singers that decide which realm of praising they want to bring the congregration to. (You guys play a very big part)" & i agree completely. When you see the people on stage singing so sian-ly, you won't feel a thing and won't even want to join in. But it makes a whole lot of differences when feelings, emotions, passion are put in. You can literally just feel the atmosphere changing. it's that amazing. (: & i know that He's around and so, thing's are made possible. And after worship & service, i was so happy i can feel myself flying :D Yes, im that happy. Another thing that add on to the already very much enough joy, i received a PM (Private Message) in the afternoon from someone saying that he's interested in Milo! I was checking whether anyone PM or reply my adoption thread early in the morning before leaving for church. Nothing. I was a little disappointed that no one actually replied or showed bit of interest when 70+ ppl viewed the post in just one night. But when i came back from church, WOOHOO! you can never know how overjoyed i was. with over just one PM. it meant so much. prayers do help! (: & that guy is so kind and generous to even want to chip in to fund for Milo's stay if no one adopts by the end of this month. how beautiful can it be? really, by God's grace anything can turn beautiful(: Haha. i was so happy that i said and said and said to fiona like don know how many times that im so happy. :D i know she felt my joy. BEAMS. LOL. and do help me out if you know ppl wanting to have dogs. spread the words(: http://www.doggiesite.com/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=54676 & everything turned out well for the thing that made me wanna scream. (: perfectness in one sunbeautifulday. AHH. i used the com over my time limit. STOP STOP STOP! oh wells . i'll post pictures NEXT TIME then. haha. FEEL MY JOY PPL! ((: |
